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They say, "What do you know? You're only twenty-some years old," and "You live irresponsibly, wrapped up in your immaturity." "Just wait until you grow up and learn the inner workings of the real world, kid." Yeah, well I think I'm old enough to know that you don't get anywhere by being over-morose, and I think I have enough common-sense to ignore repeated lectures from the despondent. If the sky comes falling and stability seems to be failing, I'll just roll my eyes, shrug my shoulders, then go about my day.
You say, "Things won't always be that way" and that "nothing gold can stay," but if such a defeatist display of dismay is a mainstay, I'm gonna have to remain a "castaway" in lieu of wasting away. When the sky comes falling and stability seems to be failing, I just roll my eyes, shrug my shoulders and remember that this is routine shit to me. I prefer immaturity since maturity is apparently synonymous with living in captivity.
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Busman's Holiday
04:23
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When dull realities are beating down on me I suddenly feel the need to brush my teeth; and a bad taste in my mouth is something I can do without, so I won't think twice about washing it out. When I said the idea of being surrounded by zombies terrified me, I meant something else completely. But, this works and it's worse 'cause one of my biggest fears is being bored to tears.
Sometimes I'd rather just sever all connectivity and retreat back to the gated community inside my head. If the current scene doesn't interest me then I don't see any issue taking leave from what makes my ears bleed. When I said the idea of being surrounded by zombies terrified me, I meant something else completely. But, this works and it's worse 'cause one of my biggest fears is being bored to tears.
And a bad taste in my mouth is something I can do without, so I won't think twice about washing it out. And a bad taste in my mouth is something I can do without, so I won't think twice about washing it out.
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Winter Kids
02:34
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I spent all day pacing like a dumb ass... a little bit uneasy about my chances of success and trying to ease this pressure inside my chest all while wondering how you might react -- and whether or not this is going to have a positive impact -- AND is my long-lost chivalry making a comeback? I think I said "fuck it" (in a good way) over a thousand times today, and I can't believe I'm actually going through with this despite all my nervousness. My bipolar foot temperature made me unsure about running the risk, but I'm glad that I did because that look that we talked about before was back in full force.
I spent all day pacing... a little bit uneasy about how you might react. But, it was all worth it and I wish you could've seen your face.
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Shortchanged
03:27
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Every personal success is squelched or held under duress every time you insist on pawning them off to your religious vices; and God has no trouble stealing your glory when along with the "power" and the "kingdom" you just give it away. You give it away so freely.
And, it's great that adults maintain active imaginations but let's try to pay attention to when subjugation instills us with Stockholm Syndrome.
The issue isn't even that you believe (or even so much why you believe). It's how you believe. Your self esteem will continue you to bottom-feed for as long as you see fit to deny yourself.
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I'm an Idiot
04:25
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I know I have a tendency to let my hopes get the best of me, but can you blame me? You already bring out the best of me. I think I'll just diagnose myself with ADHD since all of this daydreaming is leading me into only partially focusing on anything that's not about you and me. The simple act of coexisting seems to put a rose colored filter on everything -- tricking my brain and causing me to turn away from any red flags -- and the ordinarily mundane becomes the highlight of my day if you're involved in some way. My judgement might be impaired but I can't be bothered to care if I have a tendency to let my hopes get the best of me. Can you blame me? You already bring out the best of me.
Even though a reality of you and me seems more and more like a pipe dream I still have these tendencies.
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Adam and Steve
03:52
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When the notion of preserving the institution of marriage is even acknowledged, you kind of have to ask yourself, "What's the point in starting now," when it's never really seemed an interest? Separate but equal? Yeah, that's worked out so well before. And, instead of evolving ideas let's just choose to ignore the mistakes of our forefathers. The absence of common sense explains the ignorance, but you still have to answer for intolerance that even your contradictory mythology can't explain (let alone contain).
One more victory for homophobes is silver-lined with the idea that hopefully we're getting closer to the complete elimination of overall love legislation. If an entity that's supposed to exist independently of church doctrine has to have a say in the way in two adults can call a union, then that same entity can't use the divine to try and define a husband a wife as the only bond that's right. Otherwise, don't legally recognize antiquated traditions for anyone at all.
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Jaded Engineers
04:49
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Just because you're magnetic doesn't mean you control the world's axis. But, let's pretend that's true... because that would imply that you are split in two and exist outside civilization in locations cold, barren, inhospitable and mostly uninhabited. And, the idea is irrational and impossible, just like the typical garbage that comes out of your mouth. So, I guess that some it makes sense? It explains your bipolar fits and incompetence at hanging onto your friends.
My trick to avoiding an every day lyrical cliche involving arson and roadways is to avoid pork barrel spending and to insure that any more bridges I help create actually lead somewhere. That's something that's become increasingly rare. I've tried turning a blind eye to your more self-serving plights, but now I find myself unable to think that you'll ever revise what underlies that pedestal you've but yourself upon -- even though everyone down here's gradually withdrawn.
I've mastered the art of the repress, but I'm still having trouble coupling forgiveness with a willingness to forget... and I've yet to decide if that's a defect. But, as of now, I really couldn't care less.
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The Caring Continuum
06:13
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I know you're afraid of setting yourself up again, but then why are you wasting time on something so asinine? Why are you trying to persuade yourself into thinking that you can salvage something? Now, maybe I'm just not an authority on the laws of attraction. But, isn't it important for a working relationship to not be fueled by purposely half-assed bullshit? Aren't you aware that your heart can take a serious beating before it stops beating? Haven't you learned to stop all of your worrying about what the future may or may not be bringing? Instead of complaining about how it used to be, maybe you could try focusing on enjoying things?
Aren't you aware that your heart can take a serious beating before it stops beating? Haven't you learned to stop all of your worrying about what the future may or may not be bringing? Instead of complaining about how it used to be, maybe you could try focusing on enjoying things?
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